through my eyes

June 26, 2009

a journal page and need some input

Filed under: Journal, art, college, life — Tags: , , , , — kendrajk @ 7:27 pm

Hello!
I’m back from Boston.
Got back Wednesday but have been tired and no inspiration to post.
Orientation was good. Very long, we started at 8am and didn’t end until 11:30pm! And there was lots of walking involved, and then we all stayed up in the dorms until about 2. It was good. Didn’t learn anything that isn’t real common sense (don’t drink, be safe etc etc) but it was good to see the Lesley Campus as I’ve only ever seen the AIB campus before.

And after that…it was Friday and Scott showed up and all was good ^_^ We found an amazing apartment on Monday. 1 bed, seperate kitchen…5 mintue walk to the T, great location. We compromised on the move date becuase it was such a good place for the price. We move in September 1st.

So that’s just a bit of a recap…

here’s a journal page I did before I left…
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“Flowers are a symbol of death and life. Flowers are moveable, they are pieces of ephemera, they are not constant. They sprout, the bloom, they bask in the sun and at some point they all begin to wilt. Maybe one or two petals falls off, and then one daym, you glance at this thing that was one the essence, the epitome of beauty and it is wilted, bare and fallen apart. Life and death.”

Have been feeling rather meloncholy lately…I think I want to take this analysis of flowers further…you’ll see more of them, I’m sure of it.

About my summer projects….

I know mostly want I want to do.

For the nonfigurative/symbolic piece, I’m kind of struggling. I have a really great idea, but it’s very…personal and leaves me very open. It’s based off a photo in which I’m partial nude (gives the illusion of full nudity) but it won’t be that photo, it will be a graphic design piece (actually typography to be more specific).

But…I think it will be a very…interesting project. But I’m nervous about being so open.

Thoughts? Should I just say fuck it, who cares and go for it? Or try to think of something else??

June 15, 2009

brb

Filed under: art, college, life — Tags: , , — kendrajk @ 6:37 pm

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I’m off to Boston for a week for orientation and apartment huntin’. So here, I wanted to hang up my own ‘gone fishin’ sign.

I’ll be back next Wednesday (the 24th) and I have a few journal pages in the works. I expect to come back with some inspiration, or I greatly hope to anyways.

Stay inspired and keep creating! :) Bye!

June 13, 2009

More Journal Pages

Filed under: Journal, art — Tags: , , , , , , , — kendrajk @ 11:56 am

My new goal…
Finish this journal book before I move :)

I’ve quite enjoyed journaling in my journal and then finishing the page over the words.

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About fears.
“Only once we realize the reasons and the motivations behind our fears can we begin to break away from them.”

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“Take Hold”

June 12, 2009

Etsy pt 2

Filed under: art, etsy — Tags: , , , , — kendrajk @ 5:47 pm


I think I’ll make a weekly/bi weekly etsy feature because it’s such a great site and more people should buy handmade art and help support the art community :)

All these finds are for sale for UNDER $30
(please click the name above the artwork to visit the artists page, click the image to go directly to that item)

Courtneyoquist

ZukZuk

Ren Adams

BestArtStudios2

KahiliCreations

June 11, 2009

Journal Pages

Filed under: Journal, art — Tags: , , , , , , — kendrajk @ 1:10 pm

I’ve been keeping up with my 2 journals a week deal I made with myself. I think I’ve been doing a few more actually. Not sure.

But here are a few pages I’ve done. (I tried something different and decided to scan the pages instead of taking photos so some of the coloring might be a touch off.)

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“Wait I’m coming”
This journal was based off a poem I wrote. A few lines from the poem are scattered throughout the page.
The dragonflies are embossed stamps.
There’s more wax, I love wax.
Here’s a close up of a few places
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Not a fantastic page but I wasn’t really doing this with a purpose. I journaled in my journal! I wrote what I was feeling at the time. It’s about reality and life.
Then I used watercolor over it and did some free doodles with acrylic.
I bought some fancy calligraphy pens that I am now in love with and using on every journal page!

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“The lies and the truths we invent. The pleause and the pain we embrace. The people we countounter and the journies we take. The dreams that form and the nightmares that overtake. All join to form the pieces of the individualized pussles made just for you.”
My puzzle pieces came out funny, couldn’t figure out how to draw them so they were just right. But that’s okay, it’s my puzzle so it can look however I want.

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I think this is one of my favorite journals so far. Not sure why.
“One day I will learn to fly and not be afraid.”

Keep journaling! And if you make any cool pages show me and I’ll post them! :)

June 8, 2009

Summer Homework

Sounds like an oxymoron doesn’t it? I assure you it’s not.

Next year I will be attending the Art Institute of Boston and majoring in photography. It’s very exciting. I’ve been interested in the school since about 8th grade and feel in love with it even more when I first visited. (read more about my fears, excitment and doubts regarding college here )

So, today I get a letter in the mail.

In preperation for a creative, intense and prductive freshmen year…the faculty has put together the following two summer assignments…

It’s really more like four.

I have to create 2 artworks (8X10 format) that represent me. One work needs to be figurative, the other should describe me through metaphor and symbols only.

I already have some pretty bitchin’ ideas that I am very very excited about and that, I think, are very creative. But no not sharing yet. You’ll have to wait until I complete the projects.

Then I have to read Bird by Bird: Some Instructions on Writing and Life by Anne Lammott . How perfect for me. It’s a creative writing book!

From Publisher’s Weekly :

Lamott’s ( Operating Instructions ) miscellany of guidance and reflection should appeal to writers struggling with demons large and slight. Among the pearls she offers is to start small, as their father once advised her 10-year-old brother, who was agonizing over a book report on birds: “Just take it bird by bird.” Lamott’s suggestion on the craft of fiction is down-to-earth: worry about the characters, not the plot. But she’s even better on psychological questions. She has learned that writing is more rewarding than publication, but that even writing’s rewards may not lead to contentment. As a former “Leona Helmsley of jealousy,” she’s come to will herself past pettiness and to fight writer’s block by living “as if I am dying.” She counsels writers to form support groups and wisely observes that, even if your audience is small, “to have written your version is an honorable thing.” (Sept.)

Very exciting. Can’t wait to get my hands on the book.

The last assignment is that we should get the textbook for the art history course we have to take freshmen year and familiarize ourselves with the text and the images.

Nothing too difficult. I’ve done worse summer homework for my AP courses before.

Besides…it’s always nice to have a little push of inspiration and motiviation to get some creative and awesome work made. :)

June 4, 2009

Dreams

Filed under: art, life, photography — Tags: , , , , , , , — kendrajk @ 8:24 pm

kendra kantor
The lightness of dreams
(©KendraJ.Kantor )

While I blog about change and life and the dreams I have for my own growth…More often I sit through the day, daydreaming about art.

As we all know, all great writers are great day dreams ( the same goes for all artists). So, with all the ponderings and epiphanies rattling around in my head, the thing that overshadows all of that is the dreams of art.

I dream big. A lot of my dreams were not mentions in that other blog post of mine.
My artistic endeavors and my dreams for them are bigger than any of that.

Want to know a secret? Want to know my biggest dream, my biggest goal for the future?

Okay,

I want to open a store.
A store for photographers.
It would have my private studio attached.
And it would have a darkroom.
For people to come rent and use.
They could also rent out my studio.
And I would sell film, and teach classes on how to use the darkroom, studio, and alt pro photography techniques.
It would be a community available for photographers who love traditional printing.
Hmm..Maybe I would have a computer lab too, with professional paper and printers.

My life would be complete and I would be over joyed if I could achieve that in my life.

Maybe it wasn’t that big of a secret but it’s a dream that most people don’t know about. To share my love of photography with others and teach them how to acutally photography and develop.

The love you develop for your craft and the amazing feeling of smelling like darkroom chemicals for the rest of the day even if you didn’t even touch them. It always makes me smile, after being in the darkroom for an hour…hours later that day I’ll get a whiff of those chemicals off my clothes and I adore it. That probably sounds really odd to those of you who have never worked in a darkroom but I’m not crazy, I swear. (Or I am, maybe the chemicals have warped my brain.)

Do you have a secret dream? Or a dream that feels too far-fetched to really achieve? It’s not. If you can reach yours, I can reach mine. Tell me, what’s your secret?

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The lightness of dreams 2
(©KendraJ.Kantor )

June 3, 2009

Emotions and Inspiration

Filed under: art, life, photography, writing — Tags: , , , , , , , , — kendrajk @ 1:02 pm

Conceptual Photogram

The Vyxen has given me a reason to blog today.

Let’s end with a question. When you find yourself most inspired, are you feeling something strongly? An emotional response to some stimulus in your life?

I don’t know about other artists out there, but I personally cannot create a damn thing without some kind of strong emotion coursing through my veins. I’ve seen artists who just pick up a canvas or their camera and just go. That baffles me, how can you create meaningful art without a thought or emotion driving you? I guess that’s part of the reason there is so much art out there that’s nothing but a pretty picture, it’s a shame, in my mind. There’s no point to art without thought, without emotion and without a purpose.

Latley, I’ve encountered many expressing their views on “What’s the point of art?” and I’ve pondered the same thing. Why should I keep creating and keep pressing that shutter, what’s the point? Why do I keep producing things that, in theory, have no purpose? Well for starters, it makes me happy. Even if it’s not my best work, after creating a journal page or taking a photo, I’m ecstatic and that’s rare for me. I feel elated when I complete a project, even when it’s kind of ‘eh’ quality. The joy I get from creating something is hard to match.

The other point – and the reason I think art is pointless without being created from a thought or emotion – is to get others to think. I’m a big advocate in the way of thought, I couldn’t live without it, without analyzing the world around me, a piece of art I see or a book I read. Without having cause to think and things that make me think, I never could have started my other blog.

So create with a concept, create with a purpose, don’t just slop paint on to the page. Granted sometimes it’s fun, but at the same time…when I sit and just throw paint down, it’s release my emotions onto the page so I don’t have to deal with them as much. To release my stress and my anger and my pain.

And now we’re back to the main point.

What do I feel when I am inspired? What emotions course through me that make me inspired?

I know a lot of people create best when they’re in a melancholy state, most of the time that doesn’t work for me. I’ve dealt with having clinical depression all of my life and when my mind switches to that state, I’m so unmotivated I couldn’t lift a pen or camera to save my life.

When I’m in a “blah” mood, I can’t create no matter how much my hands want to make something, nothing will come out.

My anger makes me want to punch a wall not push that shutter down.

So when do I create? It seems like not much is left.
I feel happy when I create but how do I get to that point?

Actually, my point to write and my point to make any kind of visual art is completely different.

I write well when I’m upset or angry, it spurs my thoughts and my emotions. I write well when I’m on a new path, a new discovery point in my life and new thoughts are jumbling around in my head. I don’t write so well when I’m happy.

Why?
Hmm…

I’m more of a…let the words flow writer. As a poet, that’s the most important thing really, not to force the words or it won’t work. I’ve tried to force things before and the thoughts and emotions behind the piece don’t make sense when it’s forced. And the images that I create in my poems do not lend themselves well to happy thoughts. Not that all, or most, of my work is dark and dreary. Quite the opposite really, but my mind doesn’t think poetically when I’m happy. Does that make sense? Probably not, but that’s the way it is.

As a visual artist…I need some emotion to create. Even if it’s feeling connected to nature and trying to express my joy of being within nature, it’s still an emotion. I revel in being able to express myself both with words and with images. It makes me who I am and often, I try to show that.

I love getting my veiwers and readers to think on a deeper level than the did before, I think that drives me more than anything. Expressing the thoughts and emotions I have with others and getting them to a new point in their thinking, and thus their growth in life is an amazing rush to me.

So when do I create….
all the time, my mind is always creating to be honest.

June 2, 2009

10 art sites to check out

Filed under: Art Websites, art, photography — Tags: , , , , , , , — kendrajk @ 2:36 pm

Networking and finding inspiration are essential to all artists, wouldn’t you agree?
And I don’t know about all of you, but I love finding artists and bloggers who offer up linkage on where to find great sources of inspiration and ways to network.
So now it’s my turn.

Here are 10 sites that I love and would recommend you check out:

1- DIY Photography – Great for photographers on a budget. Shows how to make inexpensive lighting equipment, backdrops and they post features from their flickr group that offers tons of inspiration.
2- Photo.net – Also a great site for photographers. Offers articles/tutorials on all things photo related. There is a community forum too, so you can connect with other artists.
3- Alternative Photography – I love alt pro photography, it’s a great way to get more involved with your creative process. This site offers “how-to”s on all types of Alt Pro and a community forum to get help from others.
4- PSDtuts+ – For the digital artist. Offers some really great tutorials for photoshop as well as interviews from working artists and monthly inspiration.
5- Just Creative Design – For the graphic artists around. It’s a blog style site from Jacob Cass, he posts about being in the graphic art field (regarding web design, logo design etc) and how to sell and impress clients and ways to get inspiration.
6- Abduzeedo – A site about graphic design, offering tutorials, interviews and inspiration.
7- A girl and her Journal – A blog about art journaling and being an artist
8- Pinch me to see if you’re dreaming – Also a blog offering inspiration and things to think about when you create.
9- ConceptArt Forums – Great forum for artists of all kinds. Offers daily/weekly contests and a special forum for almost every style.
10- And of course DeviantART – A great site for all artists to post their work and recieve comments, get inspiration and network with others.
11- Special mention because it’s a great site too. Flickr – I know a lot of artists perfer flickr to DA, I personally like both. Both are great for networking and posting work so I thought I should give a fair shot to both.

Check out the sites and if you have more you think should be added to the list, please give me the links!

Stay inspired :)

June 1, 2009

Etsy

Filed under: Art Websites, art — Tags: , , , , , — kendrajk @ 7:50 pm

So I might be just a little late to the game with discovering this amazing website. But better late than never right?
Right.

I don’t have a store on etsy but I wanted to give everyone a heads up that the site rocks!
If you’re looking for some unique pieces of art to spruce up your house, go there.
If you’re an artist looking for some inspiration, you’ll find it.
I sit and browse for hours, it’s kind of addicting really.
I’ve found a ton of stuff that I would love to buy for photoshoots or for myself.

Here are some of the things I love and some people you should check out. (Please click on the name of the artist above the image to reach their store. All photos credited to the artists)

Hine
Camera case
Currently sold out, sadly.

dailyode
Coffee Vs Tea

ThePaperApartment

and a little something for the art journalers out there

Disconsolator

:)
enjoy and support your fellow artists

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